MyNDTALK

  Relationships and Mental Health

 

A Thought...

my spirit and my imagination are as important as my maturity and love...

 Day 252
365 (+31) Daily Necessities: A LifeBook for Relationship Success

 by Pamela Brewer.  Available through www.amazon.com

 

 

Letters From Life ...

A MyNDTALK series celebrating people...

 

 

 

was i 

am i

 a good mom?

 

a question that has haunted me for my lifetime  

 

i was a baby having a baby

i did not know what to do

or say

or think

or feel

and i was scared...

my life...

unreal...

and there were  times i know (now)

i was not the good mom i never had

but wanted to be

 

did i scar her

for always?

i live this question every day...

 

 

she is not living the life i would have her live

she is not in the joy i would have her know

 

she is not in the arms i would wish to comfort her

she is not the good parent she never had

but wanted to be

 

and yet

she is open and warm

she is feisty and amazing

she is creative and energized

 

she is resourceful and bold

 

and she loves...

fiercely....

 

and now it is not about me being a good mom

 

it is about her....

living in joy

and peace

and safety

and smiles

and emotional comfort

and self love

and love for others

 

and each tear i shed for her....

is a tear of fear for her

and hope for her

and love for her....

 

 

and perhaps  for today

just  today

 

that makes me a good enough mom ...

 

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